I'm going to start this post with the negative, and end with the positive because no one likes finishing anything sad. When i really got the chance to look at my assesment, and my calorie goals and whatnot, I came across my BMI. I think it's a 36 i'm not really sure the number exactly but i know it's high 30s. When i read the word "obese" over it, my heart sank. It was like a million and one things ran through my head. I was mostly confused because I always considered "obsese" to be heavier than a normal scale will go. You know, people who are so big they can't walk. But then when I got to do some more thinking, I realized i didn't have a specific point as to when I would consider someone obese or not obese. Which to you guys might not make sense, but basically i couldn't find a fine line between a big person, or an obese person i just thought obese meant huge. And I know i'm extremely overweight, but i NEVER would have characterized myself as obese. although this really brought me down, I decided that it wasn't going to be an obstacle, but instead a milestone.
(this is where it gets positive, so get your popcorn ready -- fat free of course!) After I got over the fact that i'm technically considered obese, I decided to take a screenshot, because it gave me more motivation. I have been doing amazing these past few days, i've stuck to my calorie goal and have managed to already lose a pound in 2 days, without exercising, so i'm REALLY excited to see what the whole month has to offer me! I went grocery shopping, i've cut out soda and fast food. My 2 worst nightmares. And instead of munching on chips or chocolate, I'll have a granola bar, or some veggie chips instead. These little changes have all helped me stick to my calorie goal, and I don't feel so sluggish all the time, it's crazy what 2 days can do to someone, I honestly feel like a whole new person, even though I don't look any different at all. I am SO excited to continue doing my part in losing weight and getting healthy, and i REALLY can't wait until I reach my goal (which is to be a size 8, i don't care about weight as much really). Because when i DO fit into that size 8, i will be able to look in the mirror and say " You did it, Alycia". And to me, that's a goal in and of itself.
I'm going to end this by telling you guys that I am addicted to food. It's a real addiction, just like drugs and alcohol, and it's bad. I've never openly admitted that to anyone before, but I wanted to point out that yesterday I turned down mcdonalds when all the girls in my class were getting it for lunch, and I also turned down a brownie, and instead i ate my 100 calorie pack cookies. So within 2 days i have reached not only a scale victory, but a mind victory. I will take control of my willpower!
I hope everyone else is doing good as well, and i hope I was able to give you guys some motivation! because i know when i see everyone else's blog posts about the sucess they've had already, it always motivates me :)