Hey everyone. just needed a rant. as you probably know I had to take my sons pup to be put to sleep 4 days ago and it had floored me .. I had a mental break down just before christmas and I'm struggling to get over it and pull myself together. Being with her at the end is something I had to do but it will stay with me for the rest of my life.. anyhow I have been crying or very close to tears all weekend. My youngest daughter is 16 and has been poorly with a viral infection for nearly three weeks and had to go see the GP yesterday for test results. She also has sinusitis causing her head aches and her red raw throat.. Her test results show that she isnt producing white blood cells meaning they are very low which can cause damaged bone marrow and I thought this was the cause of her extreme pain in her hips and knees. He said this isnt the case but caused by fibro related arthritis,, Im so feeling sorry for her at the min as I have fibro myself and I know the pain it causes. We went straight to see my mam and my son from the doctors office and as my dad had been in hospital yeterday afternoon getting a colonoscopy he was at my sons and gave me the results letter.. He has a melignant tumour in his bowels and they need to operate.. He is in remision already from having prostate cancer for the last few years but still doesn't prepare you for hearing he has cancer elsewhere.
I appreciate everything in life but sometimes feel that my family have a hard time. I am powerless to help when I am trying to get my head around my own life and this breakdown.. thank you for listening I just needed to get things off my chest..How I have managed to get to 100% of my bets when i feel bleugh and am glad there is no cake in the house is beyond me...It would be sooo easy to turn to food right now... big huggs to you all x