Refuse to feel like this anymore.

I've tried this before, I've even lost 30lbs a few years ago, then prompltly gained it all and more back. I felt amazing when I was down the weight so why did I go back? Why do I stay overweight, out of shape, and eat things that make me feel bad? Doesn't make sense to me. When I do healthy things, I feel great. When I do unhealthy things, I feel terrible. Why do I want to feel terrible? I don't, and I want to feel strong and healthy again. I want to look in the mirror and feel like a rockstar and confident. I want to feel proud of myself.