Well, It's december 31, 2017 at 11:36am pst and I spent most of the morning reflecting on the past year. The main takeawayI have is that I didn't do anything that moved me forward or backward. I stayed complacent. I rememebr talking about feeling okay with not challenging myself this past year but now looking back, I'm not okay with it. I need to have personal growth. I also didn't focus on my health the way I wanted to. In march, I was diagnosed with High Blood Pressure and Type 2 Diabetes. This crushed me. I've always been fat and worked my butt off in the past to not be the typical fat person with health ailments. I've become the sterotype I never wanted to be. Though I started off the year weighing 360 and ending the year at 323.8 i didn't actually focus on my health. I cut out carbs to help the diabetes but didn't truely focus on any other aspects of weightloss. I also only went to the gym for about 6 months, 3 times a week. At my peak gyming, I used to go 6-7 days a weekfor an hour or so. Somewhere along this year I have lost my motivation.
I feel super motivated for 2018. I bought an exercise bike and free weights. I've downloaded all my apps to help keep me accountable and re-visited my meal prep ideas. I've also joined dietbet which seems super exciting to me. 2018 I WILL LOSE 100 pounds. I know i can do it and I won't let myslef be my own worst enemy.
THanks for taking time to read me
Smiles,
Carmella