Well I made it to the end, and not only that but won the thing. I'm a little surprised...I definitely had my doubts in the beginning. But since I started I've lost 11-12 lbs which is pretty awesome just for 4 weeks for me! I saw there is another one starting for the month of June, but I think I'll sit this one out as June is birthday month with my sister, son and my birthday all in one month then my daughter's in July. That's a lot of birthdays.

This experience was pretty good, despite the stress it caused me initially. I was hoping to connect to people but that didn't really happen, so I'm a bit disappointed with that.  I'm by myself in this weight loss journey, but if I got myself this far I can be my own cheerleader and support myself the rest of the way.

Overall a pretty good source of motivation, hopefully gain a little money, and I'm down more weight than I might have otherwise. I'm awaiting the arrival of my Instant Pot but am excited for it...and I hope and pray it will help me lose the last 51 lbs I need to lose. Whew that's a lot...

But I'm officially in Onederland again, and that is awesome. I've gone down a size in almost everything and I'm slowly feeling better about myself. I can't wait to shop normal again and not plus size anymore. I have officially lost 30 lbs since I started my weight loss journey in January.

Would I do another DietBet? Probably...when the time is right. We'll see how I do on my own without the pressures of weigh-in deadlines. I'm a not nervous...

Trying to change my eating habits has been incredibly hard. Between my 2 little ones, one of which is teething again, and the stress of everyday life, I'm just happy to survive through it to bedtime. I hope it will get easier, because most of the time I'm too depressed to even eat. I eat very little and what I do eat is healthy, so lately I've been getting very frustrated that my weight has stayed the same for days. This is why I only used to weigh myself once a month, so I didn't have to see my weight go up and down, it was just always down. But after this DietBet I may go to weighing myself once a week at least.

I feel like I've gained a little knowledge and insight for weight loss, albeit not as much as I was hoping.

Lately I've been discouraged as I've been eating small, very healthy meals ans not seen even a fraction of change in my weight these past few days. But I'm wondering if I'm eating too much fruit. I have to load up my smoothies with fruit to mask the nastiness that is spinach. I also tend to reach for fruit if its the only dinner I can manage with a 10 month old baby teething and precenting me from doing anything in the evening.

Anyway. Speaking of fussy babies I get get going. Cheers to you all its been quite a month. Congrats to everyone just for taking this step towards bettering yourselves, whether you won or not. If not, use this to fuel your desire to push yourself harder and work hard to reach your goals. Don't get discouraged - you are worth this!! Great job to all of you!