Fighting depression with Walking

Either the depression will drop dead, or I will.

I quit smoking. Gained 50 pounds. Started smoking again. Lost the love of my life. Quit smoking again. Joined DietBet. Finding it hard to function....but the weight, well, the weight feels like something I can DO something about. I may start smoking again because I can barely hold it together otherwise. I have lost the man I wanted to spend my life with...

But I can control what goes into my mouth - and I'm using LoseIt to do just that.

And I can control how much my body moves - and I'm using FitBit to help me track that.

And I'm using this to hold myself accountable. And I just don't care enough anymore to worry if that is oversharing or not. I'm 42, I'm fat, I'm unhappy - and I'm all in to change it, y'all.

Today I'm under calories by 500, and I walked 9.2 miles. I didn't get another thing done except crying, but hey - I got more done than just crying.

If this brand of sarcasm and brutal honesty is your gig, friend me and let's knock this health thing in the teeth.

Kyla J.

10/18/2014 11:15AM

Thank you both. This week has been impossible. Deep depression, no exercise...luckily no overeating either. I'm just...so grief-stricken I can't function. Leila...I am so sorry about your family. Thank you for sharing - it weirdly does help to know I am not the only person who is hurting. I hope to take a good walk tomorrow.

Leila

10/12/2014 5:19AM

Keep walking, Girlie. Grief is a weird thing but all it ends up being is just taking ONE step at a time. Looking back, I now realize I was grieving for 4 years, when I lost all my extended family in one day due a tragic event. I, like you, will survive. You have some great tools to help you along the way. Keep/ get yourself active in new activities/ groups in the community. Learn a new craft/ karate, church, etc. The sun will rise again . . .

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