The Attack of the Lazy Monster

Posted on November 26, 2014

I'm constantly reminded of how easy it would be to go back to my old ways. You would think that once you get in a routine, it would be easier to stay in that routine. I've been working out 4 days a week since the beginning of August and can still hear that voice that screams at me in my head,

"You don't have to work out today.....I know you're tired....Take a day off...."

Why must it be so incessant? You would think that voice would be nothing more than a whisper. Mentally, I know what it was like at my heaviest with constant aches and pains. I remember being mortified having to buy new pants yet again since I was bursting out of the ones I owned and how depressing it was going to the store and even finding a pair that would fit. And yet I also remember how convenient it was to just say,

"Screw it all, I'm eating whatever the hell I want and being a couch potato."

Will this forever be a mental game that plays in my head? I hope that not only am I able to reach my ultimate goal but that I am able to maintain the weight and stay on track with new fitness goals and achievements. I hope to be able to say yes to completing a half marathon, or even a marathon one day. I hope to help my 9 year old get in better shape so he doesn't get teased for being "the big" kid, even though he's more stocky than fat.

There are so many things I hope for, and yet I am terrified of going back to my old ways. It would be such an easy transition. I don't want to be a failure to my son. Failing at being the person to help guide him into the right direction is not an option.

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Madissen

12/02/2014 9:07AM

I know the feeling. I have the "couch potato" bug too. You seem to be doing great! I love seeing other people finding success because it inspires me to do the same! I tend to start thinking that getting fit is impossible, so it's really great to see that others have paved the way and that it's NOT impossible.

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Rebekah Y.

I have my good days and bad days. Lol! Sometimes it does feel impossible when you look at how far there is to still go. It's all about one day at a time. We got this girl! :-)

adrienne121

11/26/2014 10:07AM

Great blog Rebekah!!! LOVE IT!!! Girl, you're gonna always hear that little voice in your head; we all will!!! That's because it's easier to just give in than to put forth the effort to do the work. The fact that you took the 1st step to make a change by joining DietBet was a great decision you made!!! Remember: our journey isn't gonna be easy, & we're gonna slip & fall along the way, but when it happens, just pick yourself up & get back into the game. QUITTING & FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION!!! REMEMBER THAT!!! And always know, you have your DietBetter Family here to support you every step of the way!!! GIRL, WE GOT YOUR BACK!!! NO WORRIES!!! YOU GOT THIS MAMACITA!!! :-)

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Rebekah Y.

Aww....thanks Adrienne! :-) When are those scientists going to invent that miracle pill though? Lol!

adrienne121

You're welcome Rebekah!!! :-)

I know!!! I've been waiting for it too!!! LOL!!! At the pace they're going, I will have already reached my ultimate goal by the time they come out with one!!! LOL!!!

Beckys-Getting-Fit

11/26/2014 7:51AM

You are doing great, Rebekah and I think just the fact that you are aware of this and working on ways to keep these habits ingrained will be a big help to you in maintaining your healthy lifestyle. keep up the great work!

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Rebekah Y.

Thanks Becky! I certainly hope that'll be the case. :-)

Susie S.

11/26/2014 6:07AM

I feel ya lol I been fighting that voice for a few months now I'm eating better and moving more. It takes time every step forward is worth it even if they are small. You can do this!

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Rebekah Y.

Thanks Susie! Sometimes I gotta convince myself about the end picture to remember why I'm doing this. :-)

Chrissy

11/26/2014 5:22AM

Your here, & doing something to improve yourself....that's the first step ;))
Although its going to be a long hard road, (not gonna sugar coat it...lol) ........your doing great !!!!
The longer you stay....the easier it will get ...I'm sure that little voice will never go away...just get weaker as you get stronger ;)
Really proud of you for taking that first step ;))
We are all in the same boat...I think that's what DB is so successful.......if ever you need support, it's just a click away.
I'm rooting for your continued success ;))))

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Rebekah Y.

Thanks Chrissy! I'm rooting for your continued success as well. We'll be those skinny minnies one day. :-)