I’m not going to say i am proud of myself because it makes me feel like Pavlov saying, "good dog, so proud of youuuu"
However, i am pleased with getting off my butt and doing a 45 minute workout which was nice. i think what I’m pleased about is that I’m no longer feeling like I’m setting myself up for failure. (see I think too much – I need to go easy on this overthinking habit)
what i like about exercising when I eventually get off my butt and do it is:
- the feeling of sweat running down my head and over my eyelashes and this stupendous thought that goes through my head….aah my brain is cooling off. Hahahahahhaaha
- the meditativeness of exercising – I’m focussed on nothing else but following the workout I’m trying to emulate, mentally and physically checking the things it says I should be feeling in my muscles. I have a mind that usually work overtime and it’s nice to sometimes get away from it.
Anyways back at www.giveit100.com, and this time round I’m not going for the 100 but rather just focussing on doing a workout as often as I can - taking it one day at a time instead of thinking some days of the week. I dont need another year where i started out uber motivated then frizzled to nothing. This year i want to DO MORE ME, JUST BECAUSE.... and not have it associated with my internalised oppression related to my weight. Its time i stop setting myself up for failure, and this is the best way to approach it for now
I think i should use the “mental-silence” as my motivation…..heaven knows, i need a break from my mental overdrive, stressing and be present as it happens. That sounds YUMMY!!!!! hahahahahaha