It was the first Monday of the dietbet and I struggled!  I'm realizing how much I eat because I'm stressed!

Stressful things happened at the office today and that really nice/mean lady who always brings in amazing goodies and sits them in the common area for everyone - she pulled out some amazing brownies today.  I was drawn to those brownies, I was getting pulled in like there was some kind of a magnetic force and that force increased anytime I was feeling stressed about something!  I gave in and had a brownie.

Then I came home, and stressful things happened at home, which led to a McDonalds drive through run.  I was about as good as you can get when ordering at McDonalds (at least after I initially ordered 20 chicken nuggets for myself and then realizing how ridiculous that was I asked them to remove the nuggets from my order) and I ordered a salad (I even omitted the delicious "crispy" chicken option) - but by the time my meal was done, I think I ate more of my kids' french fries than all of them had put together.

I just finally got the kids down, and I'm still feeling stressed - I just want ice cream!  For so long that's been my evening escape!

Trying opens your eyes to how far you've slipped from where you should be, and that can be discouraging.

I remember a time when playing racquetball and getting a Jamba Juice were my coping mechanisms - now it's brownies and ice cream.

I've really got to make some changes if I'm going to succeed in living healthy and reaching my goals for this dietbet.

I'm going to try to keep replacing bad coping mechanisms with good coping mechanisms and I'm going to celebrate my little victories without completely beating myself up for my failures. For example, I did eat a brownie, but I only ate one (which is way better than what I would have done last week). I did eat a lot of fries, but I didn't also eat 2 or 3 dollar menu burgers as well. Finally, tonight, I'm not going to eat ice cream - instead I'm going to write a blog post (probably a longer post than it needed to be) on the dietbet and really think about my life, where I'm at, where I want to be, and I'm going to eat some cottage cheese instead :)

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