So.... sometimes I just need to be tough on myself. I have become complacent in my diet over the past couple of years but kept with the strength training. The pic that is seen in this blog was a few years ago as I trained for an online contest. I learned a lot about diet and training during that time. I actually got too lean and lost some hard earned muscle in an effort to have the biggest transformation. Those were my less smart days. I will never do that again. But it was a VALUABLE learning experience. 

To get myself back to a lean state, I have to engage myself into something to hold me accountable. I jumped into this contest late to encourage myself to Just Do This Thing. Once I see the fat start coming off and the muscle that I have built peak out, that will be motivation to keep going. So that is what I mean by Go Hard or Go Home. I want to post my current  photos that I am ashamed of, but I have not figured out how yet...so I will share where you can see them. If you go on bodybuilding.com and search Amrn65 you can see all my pics. I also have another account on there Diva123 that has all the pics as I was trying to win that contest.  Yup 2 accounts...lol.

 

So I am doing another 12 week contest....so I will be posting progress pics probably every month. I am down 12 pounds in just 3 weeks simply by cleaning up my diet. This diet bet contest will keep me moving.

Today I was up a pound on the scale...which kinda irritated me because I have a scheduled cheat meal planned for tomorrow. I am going to Panera Bread and getting the full Steak Panini, chips, and my favorite double chocolate brownie. I allow a cheat meal a week. Normally I would do a cheat DAY, but I can't do that with these contests.  I love cheats because what most people don't know, they are good for tricking your metabolism which slows down if we cut too many calories. But if I am still up on the scale tomorrow, I will cut the brownie out of my cheat meal...and that will piss me off cuz I look forward to the meal....all of it...hehehe.

 

The scale is my enemy at times, because it often times just reflects water shifts....but if I rely on those stupid numbers on the scale...it can mess with my mind if the scale is not budging or going up. Contests like these can be a bit anxiety provoking because the scale IS THE JUDGE....even though the JURY can see the weight loss even when the scale states the opposite. I rarely curse, but my scale would tell you that I have a potty mouth at times....lol.