I hate everything.
Ok, no.
Not really.
I'm just super sore and really, really tired. Yesterday I walked for 20 minutes and went about a mile. Then I followed that up with Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred lvl 1. Today, getting out of bed was probably not gonna happen if not for the fact I had to get kiddos up and moving and to school. Even with that though, I pushed the time frame and it was all a mad blur of random things in which I'm fairly certain I drove them to school w/o having looked in a mirror which might explain the odd looks from other parents I was getting.
Note to self, get to bed earlier.
Today, I really wondered about exercise. Like so much in life now-a-days, I've heard a million different contradicting pieces of advice on exercise. You should work out everyday, you should work out every OTHER day and let your muscles rest. You should alternate top and bottom. You should only work out 3 days a week, only work out 30 minutes a day, must work out an hour a day, blah..blah...blah..
I've just decided that I'm going to walk 20 minutes (working up of course) EVERY day, and every other day I will do an additional work out for the rest of my body. I've also taken my calorie intake down to 1700. I honestly have no idea what healthy is. No, wait. I do. Healthy is "happy with myself" and "fitting into my clothing without laying on the bed to button them", and especially healthy is "not getting winded and seeing stars from jogging 10 feet". That's what healthy is.
I should say I don't know what is 'correct' as far as caloric intake goes. I've just always gone by the idea that if I'm hungry I should eat. Then again, I also ate when I was happy, or sad, or depressed, or excited, or bored..so maybe my idea's are a bit off. Anyway, I'm pretty sure women are supposed to take in something like 2400 a day? Regardless, I went through yesterday with that idea in mind and at bedtime I had to eat a slice of bread with 2 T of peanut butter on it to hit 1700 because I was only at 1500. This now makes me wonder if I'm not eating enough calories on a daily basis and my body is clinging to fat because DEAR HEAVEN ALMIGHTY WE DONT KNOW WHEN WE'LL GET ANOTHER BITE!! Honestly, I doubt it, but I suppose it's in the realm of possibilities. And on the plus side, I woke up hungry which never really happens much.
So today I'm monitoring myself again and it's 6:30 pm and I'm at 1k calories. I still have 700 to go. I know that not getting ENOUGH calories can be just as bad as getting too much so we'll see how this goes. However, today when I logged in to DietBet it asked me to finish my profile for a more accurate reading, and then said (after putting in moderate exercise of 3-5 times a week) in order to hit my goal weight, I needed to lose 1.7lbs a week and to do this, eat 1200-1680 calories a day which.....what? That's starting to sound dangerously low (1200 I mean). A quick Google search tells me that it only gets bad if you go under 1000. I dunno. For an average recommendation of '2000-2400 calories a day is healthy' to "eat 1200" that just seems off. Meh. Whatever. I should have put active since I plan on walking 7 days a week, with other exercise every other day. When I tried to find a way to fix that though, it's no where to be found. I'm going to just go ahead and stick with the 1700 I think. If I find my energy is constantly depleted, I'll eat more. If I find I'm not losing, I'll eat a little less. I swear I AM deteremined to lose this weight, I just don't want to get sick while trying to get healthy.
You know how I said BMI's are just a way to screw with us and confuse us? I'm starting to think caloric intake calculators are in the same general field. How about this. Eat only when you're hungry, stick to as much non-processed as possible, and be active. There. That's my caloric intake. :p