Blogging here huh?

Posted on May 3, 2015

Maybe blogging here would be a good way to keep things quiet, and away from prying family eyes? I'm super private, and don't really have any desire to share this with them. They're judgy, and I'll just shock the hell out of them when I finish it all.

So, hmm. What to say? I have an insane amount of weight to lose. Officially, 135 pounds. Literally half of myself. I think my mind is most blown that I ever got myself up to 270 pounds. Before my first child, I'd gotten myself down to 220, which I hadn't been since college. Then I had babies (2) and just used them as an excuse to eat whatever I wanted, because at the end of the day? My biggest problem with food?

I like it. A lot. I like food. I don't eat emotionally, or celebratorily (in general), but I love food, the taste, the smells, all of it. So when I see it, I eat it.

So I'm on the road. Offically here to be half the woman I used to be. (Though, if I get down to 150 I can't imagine I'll be unhappy)

I'm rewarding myself every 10 pounds, so far I've gotten new pens (I love me some sexy pens), a gorgeous bag, and I've earned another, but I'm still pondering. I may combine 30 and 40 pounds to get a bigger reward.

So that's me. Fat, awesome, and determined. Blogging in a little late in the game, but here to win.

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bahhhhh

05/06/2015 1:58PM

Exactly! I prefer not to talk to my family about my weight loss efforts. In part, because I've yo-yo'd in the past, in part because they're judgey, and in part because I die a little inside every time someone offers me ignorant dieting advice. My dad is the MASTER of man-splaining what I should be doing, while he starves and binges himself thin or fat. How 'bout I do me and you do you, eh family? I've found that the anonymity of this site has really allowed me to blog honestly and that has allowed me to get pretty honest with some introspection. That helps me a LOT. I hope it helps you, too. Good luck!

GlampingGal

05/04/2015 6:29AM

I've also found it easier in the past to keep my weight loss efforts to myself. When colleagues would ask if I'd lost weight, I would just shrug it off and try to change the subject. My parents and siblings are never made aware of any of my efforts. It's not that they wouldn't be supportive - I just don't want to have to answer any of their questions. My hubby is great - we aren't always equally motivated on any given day so that's a bit hard, but we are on the same track and we'll get there in our own time.

marie

This is exactly it. I just don't want to be a big deal.

Nella Wafer

05/03/2015 7:38PM

Good luck to you! It's awful that your family isn't more supportive, but I know how weird people can be about these things, so you are probably wise to keep it to yourself if that's what feels best to you. I hope that the online community can help give you the support you need!