Dear friends,

It has been much, much too long. These past two weeks things have been changing both drastically in my work and in my life. Hence, I haven't been updating and if I am being honest with myself I have been seriously slacking off.

First of all I want to say that I have successfully won Jen's dietbet! Also the Choose to Lose one. It was not easy by any means. I had a little less than 2kg to lose in ten days so I was very strict with my eating and excercised for at least an hour everyday. This was all through the stress I was going through at work. Like I was a weightloss machine. I got out of work, went home, changed, worked out for an hour-hour and a half, ate something light for dinner and went to sleep. Did the same thing for 9 days straight. Of course I lost the weight but it wasn't easy. I am sure if I had stopped to think about it even once I would've made up some excuse to not be as stringent with myself. Of course, it came at a price. Once I was done with my dietbet I saw it as a reason to relax with my food choices. I didn't feel bad about it at all. I knew I was human and I also knew that I had been very strict with myself recently so I could afford to losen up. But I haven't gotten my eating under control since. Needless to say I gained 3kg in 2 weeks. That I am not happy about. I worked too hard to just gain it back so easily. I refuse.

Today I am going to dial back in, re-assess my goals and get my eating under control. I still have 20 kg till my goal weight. It's not impossible but it definitely won't be easy. By Nov. 22, my birthday, I want to be done losing weight and start maintaining it. I know I can do it. The first 20 were easy the next 20 not so much lol.

Another reason why I have been on this awful eating spree is because my wisdom teeth are coming out and I tell myself that I will feel better if I eat sweet things. I feel like the constant pain is depressing me and it is killing all want to work out. I run as a means of working out and everytime I think about running with this pain I get in a bad mood. Today I decided that I was going to start walking today. I need to do something. If I stay at home, eat sweets all day and don't work out only one thing will happen. I will gain weight.

In other news, I have been going hard at this journey for more than 100 days, wow. There have been ups and downs (going through one right now) but I have come out of it a more confident person and that is what I wanted more than weightloss. The confidence that comes with it. With this post I pledge again to give myself another 100 days of eating healthy, excercising and living life to the fullest.

I can do this, I will do this.

So can you. Sending good vibes to everyone. Also if any of you have suggestions with ways to stay active while having a toothache it would be much appreciated!!!