I've noticed some specific challenges to meeting my goals here when for the last week and this week it's going to be raining every day. Getting outside is hard and since it's winter, being outside and just walking through the rain is totally not an option. I have tried to do stuff at home but even that has it's own challenges with all my injuries from the motorcycle crash.
Things I used to take for granted pre-accident like pushups, planking, lunges, squats are just not practical and I feel without some kind of guide I am not succeeding to any extent compared to when I was working with the trainer after my accident. The problem of course is the insurance company was paying for his sessions and they cancelled payment for those unfortunately so I'm left kind of isolated to do it alone.
I feel like I am a goldfish butting my head repeatedly on the glass wall of my tank. Food is still a significant challenge. I can't eat enough so my body is going into storage mode. I don't know how to even work out how many calories I should eat to avoid starvation mode.
Not at all to disparage anyone in the slightest but I honestly wish I just had a problem with overeating that I could look at and control and make the "Swap it, don't Stop it" game happen.
Going through compensation litigation due to the accident, my work won't take me back until that's over and I have a medical clearance, debt is mounting though I'm okay for a little longer. I find it hard to look forward to anything because of the dread filled anxiety I feel at not knowing what's going on.
This weather is destroying me. I think I mentioned it before but it saps my drive and leaves me empty and dark.
But anyway. Time to take a breath and see what positives I can take from it or how I can change how I think about things.