Today is July 15th, and today I AM done smoking!!!!! After an 8 month relapse after not smoking for five years, I AM DONE. Feels so good...I know it'll be rough, but SO worth it!

Why am I calling this the FINAL countdown?? Because I will never have to count down to being fit ever again!! I AM going to maintain a healthy lifestyle if it kills me, since I'd rather die from being too healthy than too unhealthy!

It's been a rough year... 
Two of my great grandmothers passed away.
One of my best friends was diagnosed with breast cancer and is enduring the battle of her life.
My significant other and I had moved into (what would have been) our forever home, only to have it be condemned due to an oil spill less than two months after moving in.
I have been struggling with body image and eating disorders.
I was told I have PCOS which puts a damper on the only thing I ever knew I wanted in life...children.
My Nana was diagnosed with breast cancer, as well. Then, we were told she had beat it and could begin to move on with the rest of her life! A week later, she was diagnosed with a terminal brain tumor and has weeks to live.

Nana and Papa are my motivation. I AM going to get back to the person I was. An avid runner and yoga participant, and a nutritional nut! I AM not going to smoke and drink my face off anymore. There are more important things in life that I need to work towards. I now own a car that is going to need to have funds set aside for it. We are looking to buy a new house. And I want Fifty Percent of whatever I make on here to go towards my Nana's and Papa's well-being. I will love who I see in the mirror! I want to be held accountable for my actions and this is how I AM going to do it!!

I hope to meet people on journeys of their own!! I AM going to motivate those having a tough day, and I would love for someone to light a fire under my ass when I'm having a down day, too! Sometimes, it's hard to see the bright side of things, but I want my health and fitness to be the one consistent thing that only I have the power to change, and somewhere to take out my frustrations.

This is my first ever blog entry...let alone, a public one! Maybe TMI? But...I'm going for honest here, people!

Also, I went back and editted this from saying 'I want to' to 'I AM' in front of all my statements, because I AM going to do it!