Been away for a while. Had some wins and some losses. 

Nearly gave up a few times. (pretty recently)


Many days crying in my car while eating foods that I shouldn't. Lots of it. 


But I am back. 

Going to put a better effort. Embrace the journey and keep on keeping on. 


Today was a OK day. I am shampooing my carpet while my kds are gone. It is long past due. I have eaten so much food, I am ashamed to admit to what I have eaten. In fact, I have caught myself sobbing while I eat. Mostly from shame. 


Some days I feel like an imposter. I feel like I workout a lot yet I cannot lose weight. My body has not changed. 


I wonder if I am just making excuses or if I really have a problem.  

I don't know.