I should be really pumped with how I did last week and I am, but today has not been that great mentally. The day started off great. I packed my lunch even though I know my co-workers were bringing in lunch for everyone. It was suppose to be a stew. Which I thought I could do that, but still packed my own lunch just in case. Well... it wasn't stew it was turkey sandwiches on crossaints. Okay again I can eat just the meat and cheese with lettuce. I started off that way, but gave in and ate 1/4 of the crossaint. I know that wasn't so bad, I logged it, but I gave in. I really didn't want it, but still it was a crossaint. :)
Okay so dinner was all planned out, I was coming home to make regular meatloaf for my mother and brother and mini turkey meatloaf for myself. Again it shouldn't have been a big deal, but the hamburger was still frozen so I couldn't make them what they wanted for dinner, so I had to make just grilled hamburger patties. They wanted mac & cheese with it. Okay I was good with that I could skip the mac and cheese and just have my salad. I did to start off with, but they barely ate any of it. I hated throwing away all of it so what did I do. Have two big spoonfuls before putting it in the garbage. Again I logged it. I am still under for calories today, but on a low carb day I added to many carbs.
It is just a small set back, and I shouldn't be beating myself up about it, but I am.
I am a big Oregon Duck fan so I am watching the game and getting my steps in at the same time. We aren't playing well, but I find that walking in place to get 5000 steps is so much harder than walkng outside. Okay I am just whinning it could be cause my Ducks are down.
Tomorrow will be a better day and I know that and if I look at the day over all with how I was in the past it was a great day. I just want that feeling it is a great day. Last week I was riding the high of doing well, I hope this week won't be a struggle with the emotions that let me put the weight on to begin with. The self doubt, low self esteem, and feeling of failure.
Let me end this on a positive note. I am doing great. I am having little victories every day. I worked hard to get my 10,000 steps in today. I did get my 10,000 steps in today. Yeah for me.!!!