Motivation?

Ask yourself how did Xena and Starbuck cope on days like you are having. I'm sure they also went through it but we never saw it. In Xena's case, I can't help but think that Gabrielle may feel let down if Xena had an off day. She idolized her. An off-day for Starbuck may have brought Col. Tigh & the Cylons some pleasure but everyone else would have felt a negative impact one way or another. Yes, you're allowed to feel this way but show the world you have the same drive and passion as Xena and Starbuck. I think you do.