So this week has had some high and lows if you have been reading my blogs, I had a couple of very low days, but ended the week with some highs.
I finally made it to my kick boxing class. I got disappointed in myself with how badly I did in the class. But I going to get stronger just not physically but mentally too. So the mental part is going to be the hardest. After I left the class I swore I wouldn't go back, but by the time I got home, looked back to what happened I had to laugh at myself. My pants fell down past my butt at some point during the class, didn't realize it until after I walked out the door and the cold air hit my thighs. I had to much in my hands to pull them up until I got to my car. I was so embarassed. But looking back I should feel good. My pants fell down!!!! woot woot. That has to be a good thing right.
I really wanted to get in my 10,000 steps today, but after class I was so drained I layed down and fell asleep for a couple of hours. I am already feeling sore and getting the 10,000 in today is a dream, but I am not going to beat myself up about it.
The other things I have going on is looking to far forward. I have a very busy week coming up. I have to work 7 days in a row, so starting tomorrow which is usually my day to get a good walk in will be hard, But I am already feeling discourage by the lack of not doing anything next week. What!!??!!! The week hasn't even happened yet, I am putting mental blocks up before the event even has happened. I will be taking each day as it comes and doing my best to get what I need that day. I think at times we defeat ourselves before we even try. So next week bring it on. I will only look at the day when I get up and go to bed and assess how I did then not before it even happens.
I weigh in tomorrow hoping for a good number, will see. But no matter what that number says. I know I have done my best and I am stronger anyways,