I am feeling quite blah today. I seem to have lost my motivation or mojo or as I told a friend the other day my sparkle. I have had an email conversation with a dietbet friend and she reminded me that everyone has those days. It seems as if you get to a point in your journey where everything you do is a "why am I doing this?" moment, nothing is making the difference for me. I just dont know why I am punishing myself and pushing to the point of my body hurting. I am not seeing any changes.
She also reminded me to look at the journey so far, what can you do better today than you did yesterday. What changes have you made to make your health better today than last week. How many "steps" have you taken to make today better than this time last month. or year. So while this journey of a thousand steps is taking "forever" and not all of the changes are visable in my face, or in the size of my waist or even by a huge drop in the number on the scale I know there are differences in my health.
As I said in a previous post, I have been able to drop one of my diabetic medications and not had to add it back into the mix. I have lost weight and actually got a keep up the good work from my specialist. I can get through an hour long session of aerobics with out stopping every song, I push harder each session and I am constistant!! I walk, maybe not every day (too hard on my body) but I can finish a 5k in 50 min, next goal is to improve my overall endurance and health of my knees to start to run.
So while my motivation is lacking, my mojo missing and my sparkle isnt quite as bright as I would like it to be, they are still there. They are slowing becoming more apparent as I re-eveluate my previous journey and start to lay the plan for my future goals.
If there is one thing that I can offer as advice to those on this journey, no matter how long it has been and it will be long for some of us, find someone you can connect with. someone who will kick your butt when you are down. someone that will just listen if that is what you need.
Remember we all have/need goals and if you find you are lacking motivation, or if it seems as if nothing is working for you, someone else has been there and all you have to do is reach out.
So thank you Louise for your blog post this morning and for the email conversation this morning. I am slowly coming back to life. check out her blog, it really put somethings in prespective. The Ups and Downs of Long-Term Dieting. She really does have a great way of looking at things.
Now time to start writing down those goals to see where I am going next!! and to remind myself that this journey, while it is nice to like the reflection in the mirror, isnt all about the physical appearance of my body!!