Psychological warfare!!

Posted on October 26, 2016

Sometimes it is about the psychological warfare we must play each day to move forward.

Wow that is quite the line!! This is where this thought has come from.

This morning was a rough start. I just didnt want to get out of bed not from the weather being cold or a lack of sleep but because of words in my head. I guess I should add that I am in the second week of an intensive medically monitored weigh loss/management program for the rest of this to make sense.

It was a weird group session yesterday that has me feeling like maybe there is no point in continuing with the program. While I did have a loss and I know not to put all of the focus on that number today I am not feeling so happy with it today. I seem to be having some problems connecting with the social worker that is working with us. I find that she doesnt seem to hear what is being said. She does affirm the good things we say and celebrates when we acknowledge its our fight or a non scale victory but those victories seem to have to be health related not appearance related. I am sure no body has ever heard "you are looking good, you must have your blood sugar in control" or "hey you look like you have your blood pressure in the normal range, what have you done?!" Some times we need to celebrate the fact that someone has lost 3 lbs or 10 lbs or even just that fact that they are able to button a shirt that they couldnt button before.

We know we have to change our relationships with food and the thought patterns around that but some of the conversation yesterday has left me feeling like I will never be able to enjoy food again because it isnt allowed. I know that some things arent the best choide for my health but I still want to enjoy that piece of chocolate cake now and again. I want to taste summer in a grilled burger or a hotdog roasted over a campfire. I struggled last night with these feelings and could have thrown it all away easily just for a piece of chocolate but I let the feelings flow and didnt go to get that candy.

So this morning was a rough start. I didnt want to get up but I did. I dressed for work in a top that fits loosely, put on a touch of make-up and used a good smelling styling product in my hair. I may not be feeling totally happy or good inside but my outside looks great!! and that is all that matters at this moment.

So I repeat: sometimes it is about the psychologoical warfare we must play each day to move forward!!

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Simone

10/26/2016 8:55PM

Do you have a group e-mail of the weigh loss programm? I would mail your blog to that group e-mail and I bet you are not the only one who feels this way.

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BCbabe

we haven't set up an email chain yet but we do talk afterward and I know there are a few of us that don't seem to connect with the social worker. On the other things I am not sure but I am going to talk with the group when we meet again next week. I also want to talk with the worker as well.

Julie Lama

10/26/2016 4:45PM

This is just a passage for now. One day you will have that food again. It will get easier. It really does. Hang in there

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BCbabe

thanks julie, I know it will, just a few moments of what the h... am I doing to myself?!

Julie Lama

It is an undertaking. You did not enter lightly. You do got this. Do your best to bring the healthiest verion of this diet to your table.

Reiner Jo

10/26/2016 9:36AM

I went back and read your previous blog, now understand your journey a little better! Think of it like this, do this for you! If you have to have a certain food lets use chocolate for example, build it into your program! I am not sure what you are doing to lose besides exercise but if you calorie count, carb count, or just plan on eating healthy figure out what it takes to get that "treat" you want without over doing it! If you don't have the willpower to handle a bag of hersheys chocolate or a bag of peppermint patties (waiting in your house to be consumed once a day)! BUY just a few.... or buy them and store them at a friends house... some people take their allowed calories and add them up for the week, and take a few days of lower calories so they can splurge on things they have been without for a few days! YOU HAVE TO REMEMBER, YOU HAVE TO MAKE THIS WORK FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE! Also slow weight loss, tends to stay off longer... just a small tip! If your social worker isn't good for you turn her deal into a positive by talking to people and motivating them yourself... that will help you motivate you! Start little challenges with people, say I'll bet you I can have my food log completely filled in this week, then continue to the next week... maybe a dollar for everyday it isn't filled in or 10 cents... you'll find the people are extremely motivated even with the smallest amount of money.... everyone puts a quarter in a jar, every week they lose and yo

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Reiner Jo

if you are losing weight keep doing what you are doing... don't get discouraged by the social worker... I bet she's skinny too isn't she? who can trust a weight loss coach that has never had a weight problem? ha ha

BCbabe

Nope actually she is bigger, not like most of us in the program but she admits to having issues with food, she did state that she had to have a talk with a bag of jujubes!! and she has done the shakes as well, not as long as we are but she knows what we are up against with the flavor of them