So yesterday was a hard day, today much better. I got my steps in earlier and it was much easier. The only thing I am going to struggle with is getting to my kick boxing class this week. I signed up for it paid alot of money to do this, but I can't get myself to go. I am feeling better and today would have been a good day to go, but I just couldn't make myself. I know deep down if I go I will feel better, but it is a place where I don't know the people and feel uncomfortable working out around people who I think are judging me. I know they aren't they are there for the same reason I am but it is a huge anxiety issue for me.
I am not sure how to get over this feeling, I want to get over this feeling, if I don't interact with more people than my family and co-workers I am will be stuck in this life I have built and I want out of it. It is part of why I am so heavy. I built a wall around myself with my weight and now I want the wall to come down, but the anxiety is overwhelming at times. I will try and push myself to go tomorrow. I know I will enjoy it. Part of taking the steps to a healthy and happy life,
I want to thank everyone who reads my post and give me encouragement. We all should try one thing a week out of our comfort zone that is part of the transformation we are wanting. Taking those steps to better ourselves.
Again thank you all for your encouragement.