I have had an interesting journey the last few months as I moved through a medically monitored weight loss program connected to the hospital bariatric center. I went from eating way to much of the wrong foods to being on nothing but shakes and water and broth for 12 weeks to a transition period as we moved back to eating "real" food.  Through all of this we were working on weight loss, health and our relationship with food.

 

Now as we are getting to the end of our weekly group sessions (6 months of that) we are starting to talk more and being open about things that set us off during our sessions. The last month one thing that has come up is body weight set point and how the program is really more about our health and not about weight loss. I do find it kind of interesting that our social worker and dietitian have this mindset when the nurse practitioner seems to be more focused on the weight loss. And of course we have a kinesiologist that is working with us and she seems to be "pushing" hard exercise or working out hard.

 

Now I get that moving more, so working out is a benefical for my health but I feel like I am getting mixed messages now that needs to be sorted out. I understand that science has proven that your body will develop a set point for weight. I also understand that science seems to have proven or comfirmed or developed the idea that your body will always want to be at this weight, the comfortable weight if you want to use that term. What I am having an issue with is that I can't do anything to change this point!! no matter what I do I will not ever get my body to be happy at a lower weight, it will always what to be heavy. Now at this point I need to say that I also have a rebel type personality. I refuse to believe this last piece of information, I refuse to let my body decide that I will forever be heavy.

 

Ok so that being said, I did ask while I was in my group session and the answer was that no this could not be changed. Ok so I get that but do I accept that?! Uuummmm no!! I believe in the science that says a body in motion will stay in motion and a body at rest will stay at rest!! I believe that if I continue to fuel my body with good, healthy food and continue to move it there will be a happy point where I am lighter than my heaviest weight and I will be healthy at this weight. I have always been healthier than my weight would lead people to believe. I didnt have high blood pressure, I didnt have heart issues, I didnt have high cholesterol numbers, I was mobile. Yes I am diabetic on medication but I am not considered a "brittle" diabetic meaning that my sugar was out of control. I was close to normal numbers in that sense, just heavier than my body should have been.

 

So the rebel in me has kicked in and I will "fight" my body and the set point for weight because I dont believe that it cant be changed. I just have decided that I wont be driving myself crazy on a daily basis. IF i want to have ice cream I will have it, i just need to allow for it. If I want to enjoy some cheesecake on a special occasion I will just make sure that there are more veggies on my plate before hand and less carbs. My life will be about balance and not about fighting nature, genetics or science, it will be about bending it to what fits my life!!

 

The information seeker in me understands the science and the concept, the rebel in me refuses to believe it and the all or nothing attitude will get me to where there is balance because some things I can live with out and others I can't. I am not my body, I am not the science, I am the action I take to be happy!!