Week 2 day 3 disappointed with myself

Posted on January 14, 2015

Okay bad day with how I feel about myself. 1st thing I weighed this morning and I gained a pound when I have been doing everything correctly. I even increased my exercise and I gained. I know that it just happens sometimes that you gain, while on this journey but I wasn't expecting it so soon. I was on the weight loss high and came crashing down today.

I still stayed on my plan today, but I didn't go to the kick boxing class like I said I would do. Again I had an anxiety when I was suppose to go. So I came home. I don't feel like getting my 10,000 steps in today though I know I should just push through these feeling. I did do 20 minutes of Jillian Michael beginner shredd, but I don't think I pushed myself as hard as I could. So now I will add some extra steps in still tonight.

Then I am watching TV while working on this, I have ET on and some c**** from englad was talking about how disgusting fat people are. I know I did this to myself, but she was talking about how I think everyone sees me and it has just made me feel worse. I just want to cry, okay I am crying.

I don't want people to see how fat I am anymore, I want to be healthy and the correct size, but it takes times and when you have 149lbs to lose it will take alot of time. I am not discouraged with the process, and I am not giving up, just venting.

So tomorrow will be a better day. I will get past all these feelings I am having about myself and feel better. So off to walk 5000 more steps tonight before bed.

Talk with you all tomorrow. Don't give up, one step, one meal, one day at a time.

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Travis

01/15/2015 9:13AM

I have a bit of advise that I have adopted in my life for just this situation... Be like the Daylily, they bloom their flowers each morning, they are beautiful, however, the night does come as does the pitfalls that make us feel like then end, you see their flowers only last that one day. But alas, tomorrow does come and tomorrow their flowers bloom again. Marsha you rock! keep up the good work.

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Marsha B.

Thanks Travis. Made a conscious choice this morning to have better thoughts and so far so good. Not letting the last couple days derail me, still chugging along. Thanks for the support.

Chris

01/15/2015 6:28AM

Marsha, I have about the same amount to lose. We can all do this together. It's tough, yep. But each day is a new one and forget what's behind you. Work toward your goal and the reward will be a healthier you with little rewards along the way. :-)

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Marsha B.

01/15/2015 6:03AM

Jennifer we can do this. It is going to be hard somedays, but each day we get to wake up we have another day to do better. Today I have a positive feeling that we both will do great today. ! :)

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Jennifer T.

01/15/2015 3:24AM

I know how you feel,I wish I only had 149 to lose.

Janine C.

01/14/2015 8:47PM

YES, don't give up. You can do it!!! We all have ups and downs and fall off the horse, but just get back on. I like to tell myself Progress Not Perfection. You could be retaining water so don't think you're not doing enough. Just keep going and in a few days you'll see a change. Good luck!

Kimberly D.

01/14/2015 7:50PM

I'm sorry you are having such a tough time. Positive self-talk really helps me on the rough days, but it's also good to affirm yourself on the good days. I see you've already lost 2.5%, which is great! You're not behind at all, so just keep pushing and trying to get those steps in!

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