The past few weeks have been tough. I've been feeling a lot of anxiety and stress about work. I spent a lot of nights glued to my laptop screen watching episode after episode on Hulu in an effort to detatch from my life. At the end of last week I binged on ice cream and that set me up for a few more days of really terrible eating.
I've decided to give up sugar again. I can't handle it in moderation. The binge last week was triggered by one tiny little bite-sized cupcake. There were some Halloween treats out at work and I walked by and took just one of these little 60 calorie treats. And as soon as the sugar touched my tongue, I knew it was over. There have been times when I can handle sugar in moderation, but right now in my life is just not one of them. I am so so stressed about things going on in my life that I simply can't be trusted to be moderate. It's out. For 30 days. Then I'll reevaluate.
I saw a girl running this weekend with a shirt that said "Want it more." That's becoming my new mantra. Want it more than the temporary satisfaction and feeling of abandon you get when you overeat. Want it more than the temporary pleasure of lounging in front of the TV and turning off your brain for a while. Want it more than you ever have. Because you haven't suceeded yet. and the only way you're going to get there is if you want it more.
Goals for this week:
No sugar (by which I mean no ice cream, cookies, cake, candy, etc. Fruit is fine.)
100 oz water per day
4 gym classes